Be the Real You
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Definition of WILD CARD: noun
: an unknown or unpredictable factor.
"The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit.” // John 3:8
Just as the Holy Spirit is unpredictable and mysterious, The WILD Card series is a collection of posts designed to be spur-of-the-moment and Spirit-led, based on the discernment of each individual author.
I’ve been in rooms bursting with people, loud music pounding, and drinks pouring.
I’ve danced to music I’ve never heard of and put on a show for whomever I was trying to impress. I’ve often times found myself feeling very out of place, like a fish out of water. One moment I was still, the next I was spinning in motion to a rhythm I wasn’t familiar with. Trying to figure out who I was and where I belonged, I always seemed to be searching for that answer within other people, but not within God.
I’ve made stupid choices along the way, like most of us do, and I've been hurt by letting the wrong people in too close to me. I let myself be influenced by how they felt I should be. I began trying each day to fit that mold, to be “picture perfect." I’ve had temptations throughout my life to fit in, to do what everyone else is doing. I’ve felt pressured to drink, party, and be young, wild, and free, as they say. But the truth is, that isn't who I am. Slowly I began to see I had to wipe my slate clean and start over fresh. My interests changed and it took a strong realization of waking up in the hospital to realize that I needed to reevaluate what was important to me and who I was trying to be.
The constant need to let others shape you gets old, but growing in your faith and finding out what God’s plan is for your life never does.
For we know that our old self was crucified with him so that the body ruled by sin might be done away with, that we should no longer be slaves to sin. // Romans 6:6
I’ve realized through that process that you cannot defeat bad habits in your own strength, for ours is never enough. We will fail and fall flat on our face time and time again. It isn’t until we realize that with God, those bad habits cannot defeat you. You may have to fight a battle more than once to win it, but in the end you can overcome anything with God and be able to win those battles.
I’ve learned that hurt and isolation is temporary once you let God flood your soul like a wave crashing into you. It can be sudden and terrifying to let go of the old you, the old habits that used to define who you once were. But, if you let go of everything and everyone trying to shape you and let God take you away on his current, you will be swept away by His love. You will begin to know the real you through His eyes.
You can begin to discover your true identity the more closely you are drawn to Him.
Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations. // Jeremiah 1:5
You can rest assured knowing that no matter what mistakes that you’ve made before or are going to make, God has chosen you and appointed you to do great things in this life. Your past is forgotten. He has set you apart for a unique purpose. Our assignment, our destiny, and our purpose came from Almighty God. He knew us before we were formed in the womb. He knows us from beginning to end and He has an incredible plan for our lives.
Be confident in who you really are and in knowing that you are apart of His ultimate, perfect plan; wholly and dearly loved, and more than enough in His eyes.