With Him & Through Him
I M P R E S S I O N S
In this world, you will have trouble. But take heart! For I have overcome the world. // John 16:33
Heartbreak is inherent to the human experience. In our journeys through the valley, it can be easy to lose sight of the hope and promise we have in Jesus. This series is designed to offer hope, encouragement, and purpose through powerful testimony, shared experience, and the redeeming work of the Father.
Pain has no prejudice.
Pain doesn’t care if you are black or white, male or female, young or old, rich or poor. We are all susceptible to it no matter who we are, no matter where we come from. Moreover, no matter what we do to prepare for life's circumstances, pain will find its way into our hearts one way or another, at one time or another.
One of the hardest and most emotionally painful times in my life was when I got the call telling me that my dad was in a car accident. I rushed to the hospital to find out that he had a heart attack while driving, and in that moment it was immediately clear that he had gone home to be with the Lord. I was dazed and confused, and I couldn’t form cohesive thoughts. My dad was my best friend and he was taken away from me far too soon. As broken as I was, I remember watching my mom go through this horrific ordeal and how it broke my heart to see her so lost and broken. Her whole world was taken from her in an instant.
From that moment, I started to question things. I started to question my faith, question God and question my spirituality. I wondered how God, who was supposed to be all-loving and all-knowing, could rip our hearts apart like that. I became bitter and turned my heart away from the Lord. I was so unbelievably lost that I was unable to comprehend how things like that could happen.
As time went on, and the pain held onto my heart with an iron fist, I finally figured out that I couldn’t handle it alone anymore. Exhausted and heartbroken, I finally reached a place where I realized I needed God. So I turned back to Him, begging for his forgiveness - mainly for turning my back on Him. I stopped asking why things like this happened and just trusted that He knew what He was doing. I figured out that no matter what happened, one thing was sure - I certainly didn’t have the answers. I had to trust that He did and that He would be faithful to fulfill His promise - the promise that He would bring good out of every situation, no matter how hopeless.
And the best part of all? God was right there waiting for me with open arms.
Being the all-loving and all-knowing God that He is, He showered me with His love and grace. It was at this time when I started to feel reprieve from the pain that was in my heart.
I am not claiming that I have not felt complete heartbreak or pain since this all happened with my dad but I will say this, I have a different perspective. Maybe I had to go through what I went through so that someday, who knows when, I could help someone else get through similar situations. God may use me to speak to someone else’s heart and lead them to Him as well.
I had to stop looking at it from a me perspective and start looking at it from a He perspective.
Job experienced his share of trials and pain in life. He questioned God and he questioned why he had to go through the things he did. He surrounded himself with people who were giving him guidance that was not part of God’s plan. But, when Job finally started to realize that he needed to change his perspective and put God at the center point, he started to emerge from the pain he was experiencing. When Job took his eyes off himself - a sight of lack, insufficiency, hopelessness, and despair - and put them on God, the One who is all-sufficient, life-giving, hope-restoring, and the ultimate provider, his life started to turn around. He began to worship the Lord, despite the circumstances surrounding him, and spoke life into situations where nothing but death surrounded him. Throwing his faith out ahead of him, Job worshiped in the midst of his pain.
He wasn't praising God for the brokenness he was in, he was praising Him for being bigger than the power of his pain.
This is a lot easier said than done. However, when we take our eyes off ourselves, and put God as our focal point, only then will we begin to see and feel the wonderful blessings that God has prepared to pour out on our lives. God wants us to turn to Him. He wants us to rely on him. The heart of the Father so desperately desires for us to stop and see that we are held in the palm of His hands. And when we allow Jesus to bear the weight of our pain, and the Holy Spirit to be our source of comfort, we show God that we trust Him with everything.
I used to believe that God would never give us anything we can’t handle. Now, I have a different perspective on that. I believe that God doesn’t give us anything we can’t handle without Him. On our own, we are nothing. On our own, we would never be able to get through these hard times, never able to make it through the fire. However, with Him and through Him, we can do all things.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. // Philippians 4:13